:(

So I was in charge of summer camp at work. In the first few days of the first few weeks I was there 12 hours a day often. It was draining, stressful, and exhausting. I decided in the beginning of the summer at some point that it would be awesome to go to my aunt’s house for a week with Eric at the end of the summer when the gym was closed anyway and I wouldn’t have to get covered. There’s a difference between relaxing and being bored. I didn’t want to take the time off work to sit around all day and play board/video games. We do that all the time. I wanted to pretend I was awesome and having a vacation.

It’s been an emotional struggle to give up that vacation. A few days ago I was talking to a friend who was going to go with us to my aunt’s house (my aunt passed away this past year and my niece has been ‘taking care of the house’ for 8+ months… don’t get me started). I guess in passing or something my niece told Ashley that the pool wasn’t clean. It kinda drove me nuts that my niece didn’t tell me the pool was cleaned. If we went to my aunt’s house (four hour drive) and the pool was not usable I would’ve been pissed.

So yeah, now there’s no vacation even though I’ve been planning on it since the beginning of the summer. Now I feel like I’m going to be a washed up, lazy, etc etc employee and person for the year cause I was here the entire time when normally I go away for a week for Nationals.

GRR!

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