HA! A good post.

Soo… yeah. I’m kind of shocked that they showed the footage on tv. What footage, you may say?

The footage of the Georgian luger that died today while practicing for the Olympics in Vancouver. I heard about it earlier today, but have been at work most of the day. Corey looked up the footage online… but of course you don’t expect that type of thing to be on national television… Well, anyway, I didn’t see it on national television. HOWEVER. I remember my dad exclaiming, ‘Holy shit I can’t believe they’re showing this on a national televised broadcast!’, he then went on to comment on them doing CPR on him while his head is all visually fucked up. What about those people who can’t stand to see things like that? What if someone in this country knew that guy? What if children were watching? I saw a version of the vid online, accompanied by very GRAPHIC photos. Depending on how the definition was of the video shown on tv, that could be traumatizing to someone who can’t handle that sort of thing.

For instance, when I watch something like that sometimes I have recurring visions of it in my head, and it can be scary. I chose to watch it on my own accord, but for those watching the news before the game, or whatever coverage showed that, I’m sure watching could be an after dinner family time. I’d be outraged if my child(ren) had to watch that.

I’m watching the opening ceremony and it’s amazing to see them have a moment of silence for that guy. The reason it’s so touching is that it’s 60,000+ people there… being silent for a whole minute, which is a long time when you’re sitting there doing nothing. It gives me the chills to see the huge feat of respect.

I’m really not even into the Olympics (summer or winter), to be honest. I’m not sure why. I’ve kinda thought about it and have a theory I guess. Maybe I’m just not a sports-watching person (aside from football, of course, and I think I could easily be a hockey fan, I just don’t have time to sit down and teach myself the game… plus they have a bigger watching commitment… way more games). I guess the theory I’ve come down to, is that because I did gymnastics for such a long time I just don’t find ‘amazing feats’ amazing. More recently I’ve decided that maybe from gymnastics I know that when you practice and train your body, these ‘feats of amazingness’ aren’t all that amazing if you’re prepared for it. It may be hard for you or I to do these things, but it’s not hard for them, because they’ve spend years of hard training doing it. I guess in theory anyone can do it with the time, training, and dedication. Because pretty much anyone can do it with training and practice, I’m just not impressed. It’s kind of sad though, because I am impressed with small things, and get excited over little things.

I’m pretty upset right now. Starting… last Saturday, I’m supposed to have Saturday mornings off (no longer work from 9-9, sometimes more). So my mom just walks through and lays on me, ‘Oh Alyx, I know you’re supposed to have off on Saturdays now, but can you go in tomorrow just to be sure’. She’s now really making me think she’s the worst manager in the world. I feel like she doesn’t plan at all. Fucking pisses me off. Oh, it would seem as though she was just ‘preparing’ for any mishaps tomorrow. Which would be a great thing for a manager to do, for themselves, so they don’t have to cover people not being there because they weren’t clear with their schedules. One instance of why I think she’s a shitty manager, is that today I went in to work on birthday party preparations. I was figuring I would just be there a few hours, and then I’d maybe go home and get to do some homework, and maybe get to play WoW with Daniel. WRONG. I ended up teaching TWO back to back fucking classes. (Just to be clear that’s 2 hours of wasting my time that I could be doing homework). Oh, well you may say it’s not her fault that some bad employee didn’t show up (my niece). The problem is that my fucking mother, I mean my manager, didn’t make a schedule for the new session, so everyone knew what they were doing in this session. I actually told her that she should do this, at least two times prior to the new session beginning (it’s been disrupted by huge snow storms anyway. Anyway. She had allll those days off to put together a schedule and distribute it to employees before the new session. Also, there is this one employee who she always uses ME to text him. Sometimes she does it for his friend who’s also an employee. How irresponsible. She should have his number. She’s not the ‘boss’ but she’s pretty much in charge of the scheduling. Since she’s in charge of scheduling she should have all employees numbers and availability, no? I’m concerned about the state of the company when we have dozens of employees with hundreds of classes. In hindsight, my manager at Silver Stars had her shit together. It sucks to say it, because I hated her majority of the time, and she fucked me over regularly. However, my mom fucks me over more. She guilt trips me and shit. PUL-EEZE. Any other manager, really? Would ask me to come in tomorrow at 9AM, at 12:30AM the night before? Really? And not because someone was sick, or someone was absolutely not coming, but ‘just in case’? No, I’m pretty sure no manager would do that to anyone.

Anyway, so when she first asked me, and I did the ‘deflating’ kind of hunch with the shoulders and heavy sigh, she immediately said ‘Fine, don’t worry about it’, or something along those lines that will try to make you feel like an unhelpful piece of garbage (she’s a black belt master at this). Then she went into the bathroom and since there’s a hole in the wall our conversation continued. I said, ‘Well I wouldn’t feel as bad about going in if I wasn’t there so long today.’ She went on to mention the snow days, and all of that sort of stuff. Even with the snow days, I ended up doing shit I needed to do, ie. put my book shelves together, and clean my room up some. I also have done some homework, and taken some much needed self-time. I hate how this society finds you lazy if you take ANY time to yourself, over other responsibilities. I’m sorry, if I don’t try to get some WoW time in every now and then, I’ll go fucking nuts and have a psychotic explosion all over the fuckin’ place. My mom is a workaholic and it makes me feel angry inside. Even on some of the bad snow days, she still opened the gym. It’s like she’d rather be there than here, I don’t understand it. And I think she feels upset when other people don’t feel the same way. Sorry, I have little interest in being guilted into spending a 12 hour day at the gym verses a 8-9 hour day at the gym. Another point, she mentions all these snow days and shit, well fuck you, homeslice, you can’t compare all those short days to replacing it with one huge long day and expect me to want to do that. Maybe I am lazy, dunno. But I feel like all I want in life right now, is to move out of this house, and have very little to do with Dynamite.

Oh, and to end the saga, after she was out of the bathroom, I told her ‘can you try to go down a list in your head about what classes there are and who is expected to be there, and who you know is coming?’, because it’s really absurd that she wants me to come just in case. I hate wasting my time there. It’s one thing to be at work the night before and go through the book of classes and see that you’re missing a teacher for something, and say, ‘I’m really sorry, I messed up, can you come in tomorrow?’, also it would’ve been fine if she told me earlier, if that would’ve been the case. When I know I’m waking up at 7:30-8, I actively go to sleep earlier than what I normally do (10:30-11). And then, she was like, ‘well did you talk to Julian?’ (another one of those things where I am communicating with people where she should be), Once I told her that Julian said him and Brandon were coming tomorrow, she was like ‘Oh don’t worry about coming then, Corey’s already extra’ BITCH, LOOK. WHY HAVE THAT STRESSFUL CONVERSATION IF IT’S NOT NECESSARY? /PLAN/, GOD DAMN! ugh. I hate my job.

I wanted to go to bed a half an hour ago, but when I hit ‘publish’ it lost some of the post. I tried to rewrite some of it within the context. Some of it exploded out of me after the fact, and after I would’ve posted the original post.

Good night,
Alyx